The more i ve read the bible and quran the more i became atheist. in old testament you have a God killing and teling others to do so spreading wrath among people , in new testament you have Jesus (The other part of God, which is the same one as from the old testament just the other part which is very confusing) who teaches totally the opposite of his father that is forgivness etc.
What is more redicilous is at some point Jesus said: i didnt come to change the laws from the old testament but to fulfill them, yet he teaches how to forgive while God from the old testament teaches to have no mercy on sinners, eye for an eye tooth for a tooth etc.
Then i came to a sentence where Jesus said something like (sorry i dont have bible by my hand so i cant citate exactly right now) but it goes something like this: I have much more to say to you all but you are not ready yet, after im gone the holly spirit will come and he will not speak from himself but will speak from what he hears. This is where quran comes in.
Muslims believe Jesus was exactly talking about the comming of Mohamad a.s. so i started reading quran which seemed to be the next final book of the bible trilogy (old. new.testament and quran) it made sense at the beginning but as i searched it turned out coincidence or not pagan god was hubal moon god also called allah.
Muslims claim its not true but my eyes see a statue of Allah with moon and star engraved on it simple as that. and so on i m actually writting a book about the whole thing.. Saddest part for me was the fact that neither bible nor quran is not even near perfect, Bible has soooooooo many mistakes but quran little less but also has mathematical mistakes and so on. so right now im confused.
I really believe in one God the end of days etc. but i really dont know what is tru and whats not but one thing is sure, I really want to follow the right path because i im afraid of God but the question is: which is the right path? Is it my fault i was born and raised a christian? am i going to hell for unpurposely not knowing but willing to please god?
According to the old testament God really has no mercy for pagans and if thats the case at least 80% of people ever walked the earth will go to hell, but on the other hand if God was that cruel the whole human race would be wiped of the face of the earth... So i came to conclusion... Obviously there is God, the holly books were all written by human hand even quran... you tell a joke today tomorrow its a different joke..
These books are hundreds of years old so i believe if you follow your basic instincts and the ten commandments God will have some mercy on your soul... I ve had some people do really evil things in my life including my very own members of my family but i never wished for anyone to go to hell, for example someone kills member of your family, do you want him to fry eternally for that? come on...
if you believe in God then the chances are you will rejoin with that killed member one day.... cause hell is a terrible place and none should go there, because if those evil people had knowledge of what is awaiting for them in hell they for sure would have not done it believe me...